It’s been a few weeks now since my birthday, since I turned 30, and I’m still surviving. Although, I’ve actually spent the past few weeks disappointed in myself. I know, what a great way to start off a new year of life, a new decade of life.
I’ve decided that aside from Christmas and Thanksgiving, the Fourth of July is the worst holiday to have your birthday near. At least if you are born in the US. I’ve never had a birthday party with friends. The first 10 years of my life we spent my birthday camping. The next 20 years my birthday was spent with just my family, nothing extravagant or out of the ordinary. Since my birthday is the day before the Fourth of July most people are usually out of town — vacation, camping, long weekend at the cottage. It’s difficult to get friends together. So my 30th was no different.
Now, my husband did arrange for a sitter to come so we could go out for dinner and, while we were out, we picked up my new laptop. I was very thankful for an evening out.
But the part about me being disappointed with myself — see, I really wanted to go skydiving for my 30th birthday. And I dropped the ball. I looked into local skydiving places but I never made the call. Partly it is because I would also need to schedule a babysitter for that day and babysitters aren’t the easiest to come by lately.
So I’m disappointed that I just didn’t make the appointment. Yes, I could still schedule it and hopefully I will but, in reality, I’m not sure when it will happen. Our life is busy for the next few weeks and I’m afraid that it’s going to be one of those things that just gets forgotten about. And, I don’t know, it just doesn’t seem as special being a month or so after my birthday. Not to mention that skydiving is not cheap and we have had quite a few unexpected expenses with getting my van and the camper fixed.
So I guess you could say that I’m having a little bit of a pitty party lately. And I have no one to blame but myself. If I wanted a party I should have planned one. If I wanted to go skydiving I should have just done it. Enough complaining. I’m glad we had this chat!